Monday, January 18, 2010

The Note You'll Never Read...

To You (you know who you are),
I know I'm imperfect; I've never tried to hide my flaws from anybody. I know I do things you don't like, but that doesn't determine who I am as a person. Stop making me feel that way. I'm trying hard to change - to be better, but I don't think you'll ever take notice. There's always another thing, another flaw. Either I'm doing something wrong, or it's not in the time frame you wanted. I know I'm a burden to you, and if not, you sure make me feel like I am. I just wish things were different. I wish I could look you in the eye and respect you like I should, but it's so hard when I feel like this. When YOU make me feel like this. There's not much more I can do, and not much more I can say, I think it'll always be this way. I'm just counting the days til I can get out, but I don't know how much more I can take...I will continue to pray. Whether you change or not, I am determined to be the better person. I am determined to change what I can about myself. As a wise woman once told ME - "I am not the equivalent of my flaws" the same holds true for me. I just wish you knew me enough to see that. Someday....Maybe. I hope.
Sincerely,
The girl I wish you knew better.