Seriously??

I'll be the first to admit that I have trust issues. Some of it stems from childish behavior displayed by people that I called friends in school. Granted, I was one that had my part in repeating things that I shouldn't have. I won't deny it, but it seemed to happen a lot to me. I mean, there are other reasons why I have trust issues, but I'll not get into them here. Some recent events have caused me to feel like I'm back in school again. I don't know why this is such an issue for people. Is it really THAT hard to be someone's friend and keep quiet when something is said to you in confidence??? Seriously, is it? I saw this recent person as someone I could trust, I mean, really trust. Apparently not. It frustrates me to NO END when I can't trust my friends. I'm almost tempted to go back to my old ways and just stay silent. Keep everything close to me silent. Every wish, every dream, every fear, every mistake; everything. I'm tired of being hurt. I'm tired of hearing through the grapevine that some of my words are being repeated. There's a reason why I went so many years without opening up; it's safer and less painful to be silent. Maybe I should start again....

Baby Steps...

I'm sure by now, those of you who read my blog have noticed that I've been missing for the last 6 months or so. I haven't completely forgotten about this thing, I just haven't been able to organize my thoughts/control my emotions enough to say what I want to say on here. If you hang in with me for just a little longer, I'll fill you in with what's been going on. I promise I'm slowly working my way back.

Much Love,
Leah